Update

So I've been pretty depressed and haven't wanted to write about it. It seems like I'm always writing about how I'm failing at this weight loss thing. It's like I'm trying to find my way. I just want to lose weight and be healthy. I don't want to count calories or points. It's such a psychological thing for me. When I'm "dieting", it becomes such a mind trip for me. I can and have gone all day without eating and not even thought about it because I was busy. Now, if I purposefully restrict myself all I can think about is when can I eat again even if I'm not really hungry. I have been trying to eat more fruits and vegetables and drinking green smoothies. I actually really love those things. I just have a carb addiction and don't plan ahead to have good choices available. And it's actually not a good thing to go for several hours and not eat. When that happens I'm just so hungry that I'm a lot less likely to make a good choice. I absolutely will start making myself a priority. The excuse that I'm too busy is not good enough. I'm not too busy to make sure everyone else in my family is taken care of and has what they need. Maybe I need to take some of the focus off of weight loss and put more focus on being a healthier person in general. If I put nutritious food in my body and get more active I will lose weight. This is what I will do.